CD 31 -- waiting for new cycle

Today is CD 31, I finished taking 5 days of Provera on CD 27 -- I was expecting aunt flo yesterday according to history but no signs yet. Which kind of freaks me out. I called Dr S the OB around CD 21 to let them know I hadn't ovulated so they put me on the Provera and called in 5mg of Femara. So now I just wait for all the crazy to begin again. My husband felt strongly about trying one more time with the OB as opposed to going back to the RE for a much more expensive yet MONITORED cycle. I agreed to give it another go but my hopes aren't super high. My step-kids are living with us full-time now and that's been a crazy transition. In a way it's good because there are other things to occupy my time but it's not like you can really express to young teens what you are going through. I try to smile and pretend like I'm not hurting inside. I don't even really want to blog about this anymore, a big part of me wants to go into a cocoon and hide but I need to. I need to write it out, keep a record; not only for myself but hopefully someday my story will be an extra push to someone else not to give up. Because trust me, if I ever get pregnant...anyone can.